Saturday, 4 January 2020

Oscar turns 10

When you have a baby you tend to have people with children tell you how you should treasure every moment because before you know it years will have passed and they will have grown up.  While you are struggling with sleep deprivation and knee deep in nappies and baby bottles you can't see past the end of the next day let alone a year so it seems so unlikely at the time.
Today my first born made it to double figures.  He's 10! That's an entire decade old! I've managed to keep a whole other person safe and alive for 10 whole years, and those years have gone in a flash.
It feels like yesterday that after 22hrs in labour I was handed a tiny, hairy and beautiful little boy.  I remember falling in love and being utterly terrified all at the same time.   I was barely able to look after myself,  how was I going to be responsible for someone else? And he was so small and looked very breakable.   Noone tells you that from that day forward you will worry from the moment you wake up until you go to sleep at night, it's a never ending cycle of anxiety.   It's also the most rewarding job in the world.  Watching them grow and turning into little people, hearing them call you mummy and taking their first little steps.  They are the most important person in your life and to them you are their entire world. There is nothing quite like it.

I'm so proud of how Oscar has grown up to be the most clever (sometimes a little too clever for his own good) caring boy.  He's the best big brother to his 3 siblings and I know he will dote on the baby when he/she arrives.

It is true

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